Rough Morning

This morning has been rough and I've only been awake for half an hour. My Dad came in, woke me up and asked if I wanted to go to MOA to get stuff before I go away. I said yes. For multiple reasons.

• I won't be home to have the urge to binge and purge
• I will be walking all day and burning calories.
• I won't be home to run to my scale every hour to check my weight.

But, I went to take my shower, and afterwards I weighed myself.

I can't put in to words my feelings right now.

I have gained 5 lbs.

I won't mention my weight since I don't want it to be triggering or anything.

Honestly, yesterday I thought it was water weight and I'd shed it off over night or when I went potty.... NOPE. It's all on my thighs.

I feel like crap right now. I just hate this whole situation. I mean, I was so close to my ULTIMATE GOAL WEIGHT, and now look. I just am so pissed of and so furious and angry and I just wanna yell and scream!

This just isn't working for me.