Update! :)

So Timberline didn't work out :( It's ok though. I figure God knows what he's doing and I think the fact that I'll be going back to AWH is prob. what's best. It's hard to do... but I think I can do it.

Not sure when I'll admit, but it should't be too long. OY. I feel more at ease though because now I have things in place and things are being done and that makes me feel better.

I work today and tomorrow and then I'm off the schedule for a bit until I'm a little more healthy to be at work. I think it's good to finally just be focusing on my health again and really kicking ED's butt. I know I can do it and I have a lot of good ideas for this time being there at AWH and what I can really do to succeed. I'm actually kind of excited because I feel like this is it! I can do this! Maybe things are going to finally start going like SUPER GREAT. Like I'll really get a grip on ED and symptom use.

Also, I wanted to say that I deleted a previous post about AWH. I never meant to sound like it was a judgmental place. AWH is a wonderful place with loving, caring staff. When I wrote that post I was very upset with things and I was aggravated. Yes, I do struggle with feeling judged and I do struggle with going back to AWH because I feel like staff will judge me, but I KNOW they won't. I know they never will or have. So I apologize.

Anyway! I will keep everyone updated on when I go :) Part of me wants to just back out but I'm not going to! I won't. I deserve to live a happy life and a healthy one. And I am going to this time my all.

Thank you to everyone for the encouraging words these past weeks! You all rock (=

Update On Insurance...

So we found out that Timberline Knolls is covered. So now I have to make the decision on if I want to go there or back to Anna Westin.

I know most of you are wondering why I'm even debating between the two and why would I go back to AWH...

Well, it's hard to explain my reasons but I have them. First off, traveling alone is hard for me and going somewhere so far from family would be difficult. I feel like I need them more in my recovery and going far away excludes them in ways.

I'm going to call TK tomorrow and talk to them and everything and hopefully my therapist will get back to me on the AWH info and then I can move forward. I just have a lot to think about. I hate making big decisions -_-