So, I woke up, weighed myself.... dropped three pounds
ED says that's an achievement.
Kelly says that's going backwards in my recovery.
WHO DO I LISTEN TO?
Anyway. After I got my haircut today, I left and had two stalks of celery and some diet ice tea. I was happy and all... got home....
- handfulls of trailmix
- two plain tortilla wraps
- 2 choc. chip cookies
- 5 trefoil cookies
- 2 pieces of sushi
- half a graham cracker
I literally was just shoving food in me without even tasting it... I just stuffed it on me....
I want to purge. SO BADLY. SO SO SO BADLY.
I'm drinking coffee right now.... hopefully, since it's a natural diuretic, it will help get it out quickly..... I'm so pissed I don't have my laxatives X(
I'm NOT looking forward to IDP tomorrow. I don't wanna eat. Tomorrow, when they put the food in front of me, this is how I will react. NO JOKE.
SCREW ALL OF THIS.
I hate you ED. 
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