Uncertain...

Well, I have been back at work now for almost three weeks and it has been good! Everyone was super welcoming & kind! I've noticed a big difference in how I interact there too now. I am more of myself and less quiet and reserved. I guess I push ED out a little more while I'm there. I guess the only part that really sucks about working where I work is that I get a lot of weight related comments from customers. It sucks and it's triggering but I guess I just need to ignore those, keep going, and do my best to do what I need to do for me. What those people say are not true and I don't need to listen to them.

Today though has been a rough day. We had a breakfast outing to Panera and I felt so alone during the whole thing. I don't know why. I mean, at one point we were talking about TV shows and I piped in out Once Upon A Time and that got me engaged but it seems like I got shut down or something... no one else really wanted to talk about it. So I just found myself kind of eating and being lost in my thoughts. I wanted to be a part of the experience but I just... idk... ED was so loud.

Anyway, I have DBT group tonight which I'm not looking forward to. I AM SO TIREEDDD.


I hope today goes fast. I just wanna curl up in my bed and listen to music <3

Anyway, that's all.