I'm Amazing

So I was drying my hair just now and it occurred to me that I am pretty amazing. I mean, I think it's pretty incredible that I wake up everyday with this voice in my head constantly telling me I'm not thin enough, pretty enough, I need to restrict, purge, exercise… and yet, I still keep going and fighting. I am stronger than I think. I have been really trying to fight this eating disorder and I must say… I am doing AMAZING. And to all the girls out there fighting one as well.. YOU ARE TOO!

YOU'RE AMAZING. You wake up each day too with this terrible voice and yet, you still keep fighting to recover! It's incredible the work we do. Most people think recovery from ED is simple… Just eat. Umm… it's far more complex than that! I mean, we have to retrain ourselves to learn that food is OK, that it won't change our bodies over night or in just a matter of seconds. We have to learn it's ok to keep it in. That we truly can eat and still be beautiful! Regardless of our weight.

It's not easy relearning all of this. I've had a hell of a time trying to tell myself it's ok to keep food in and not purge. And I definitely still struggle with the whole "you won't gain weight over night" since every morning it looks like I've gained a pound or two. But really, I haven't. And even when the thought of it is SO STRONG, I keep going and eating. Of coarse I still struggle, people know this. I have days where I fall to the ground and cry my eyes out! But I KEEP GOING. And so many of the girls I know do too. Especially my AWH ladies! You girls are amazing! I've lived with you for months and have seen the struggles you deal with and what you've done to overcome is so extraordinary! I love seeing the progress of both myself and you! I am truly amazed at what we are capable of. Honestly, you are so much stronger than what yourself credit for.

I hope I don't sound conceded or crazy, but this is just something I had to share!

Keep fighting, ladies! And remember… "A challenge a day keeps the ED thought away!" (EDT Jen, lol)