WHY IN THE HECK DID THAT HAVE TO HAPPEN? I mean… seriously… of all the people in the WHOLE WORLD!? DAVY? DAAAAAAVY?!
I didn't eat after I found out, that's how hard I took it. Which, obviously, made ED happy. I suppose I was both in ED symptoms and mourning mode :/ I mean, one of my FAVE PEOPLE IN THE WHOLE WORLD AND WHO WAS BASICALLY A PART OF MY EVERY MORNING (I listen to The Monkees every morning… haters gonna hate) IS NOW GONE x___X And on top of all of this sadness for Davy, ED is like louder than Hell. He's all up in my face 24 hours a day yelling at me.
I did do one momentous thing though…. I gave up my diet pills yesterday to an EDT… so that is pretty good. Even though now I'm going nuts and wishing I hadn't because I'm now in panic mode. (Gawd I sound messed up. Sorry.)
I'm in a rough spot. ED is loud, Davy is gone, my mind is a giant clusterf---- and I can't seem to calm down.
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