So today was my last day of IDP

at the AWH and I thought I was okay with it until it was actually time to go home :/ But I realize that I am terrified out of my minnnddd. I was scared to walk out the door. I knew it would be my last time (hopefully) and that scared me.

I guess it's just scary to know that my level support is gone and I no longer have like EDTS or w/e to check in with everyday. It's a sucky feeling knowing that you no longer belong to a place. I'm weirdly going to miss it :/ I am however glad to be gone and done. I mean, I think I've learned what I can and I have gotten what I can from there.

It's just nerve racking because my ED is so loud and immediately wants to go back to symptom use. UGH. It just won't shut up! I hate it. But I'm going to do my best to stick to my meal plan and to do what I need to do in order to get better and not worse.

There's really not much else to say. So I'm gonna go now.

Bedtime now.