I was getting dressed and was putting on a button up blouse. When I went to ask my mom how I looked she just stared at me…. for like a minute straight. And I asked her what was wrong and she just turned away. I asked again and this time she was crying and just said "You look startlingly thin."
First, a smile wanted to appear, but then I felt this pain of overwhelming guilt and shame. I didn't even know what to do or say and so I just walked away….
Now I'm dealing with ED throwing a party in my head and Kelly sitting here just feeling like CRAP.
UGH.
Honey, I'm so sorry. I can just about imagine the kind of hayday ED is having with this. But your mom may have a very valid point... we need to talk. ASAP, ok?
ReplyDeleteOh god, that's a tough situation. I'm having kind of the opposite problem with my mom. Every time we're shopping she throws a cheerleading fit about how I have to buy new pants because my old ones are too small now. Real helpful, mom... NOT.
ReplyDeleteWhich then results in ED wanting to kick it into high gear, and me, feeling like shit for lashing out over her being triggering.