I got a meal plan increase and I will be starting desserts this week :'( I'm freaking out about that. I had a breakdown right before dinner, which kind of felt good. Sometimes it's just good to cry.
I also discovered I have not yet gained any weight. That pleases ED A LOT. So I'm struggling with those thoughts :/
I get to go home Christmas Eve on pass :) So I'm happy about that. But Christmas day I'll be here at the house. But we have fun stuff we're gonna do :) So it's all good.
It does feel weird though to be in treatment at Christmas time…. but like I tell everyone, I will have plenty more Christmas's in my life. This isn't the last one!
Well, there's not much more to say other than I'm really having a hard time. But I'm off to bed now!
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