I just got weighed and all that fun jazz and I gotta tell ya… I wanna bolt out the door. I am shaky and feel sick. I feel pain all over. I'm having anxiety attacks and just these terrible breakdowns.
I want my mommy.
I didn't sleep at all last night. I woke up every 30 minutes. It was ridiculous. And one of the EDTS is just looking at me and not even saying hi. It's SO FREAKIN' AWKWARD. I smiled at her and waved because I KNOW HER and she's just like "bleggh" like, dude… who could forget this face?
Anyway. Today I have a busy day. I have attachment group, mindfulness, DBT, therapy, all this fun jazz. I need therapy badly, I can tell ya that. I have a lot I need to get out. And I know my therapist from last time so it's all ok. I like her and I feel comfortable with her.
Tomorrow we have no programming in the morning and we get to go out on an outing :D Coffee shop and paint a plate :) They're having some cleaning done in the house so we all have to be gone for a few hours.
Anyway. I don't have to much to say. Just that I'm upset and I'm scared.
Kick EDS ass! Show it who is boss. Its up to you to get your life back fight for it girl :) Miss you <3
ReplyDeleteBe strong. You have love surrounding you. Just talk and talk and talk and get it all out. They can help you. Let nothing hold you back! You can do eeeet! :-D
ReplyDeleteYou're going to recover- hence the name you gave it- it's "Kelly's road to recovery". I don't doubt for a minute that you'll recover from this. Try to see the big picture. I know that you're doing one day at a time, but try to see the future in recovery. I love you, Kelly, and I am praying for you every day that you see what I see. Love, Aunt Nancy
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