I've been on bed rest all day. I have a terrible fever and keep having horrible cold sweats. I am so miserable.
So I was pulled out of programming all day today. I'm feeling some what better, but still have a head ache and crap.
They say it's prob. a bug or my body just going through the changes of my eating disorder :(
Two days ago we had quite the scare. I had a terrible pain in my heart and I couldn't walk or breathe for a few minutes. But I'm ok. I'm alive.
Anyway. I had a tough weekend. I got caught using symptoms and got my weekend pass taken away. I cried. I hate myself and how I always give in to ED.
Why can't ED just go away? I feel like this is all so hopeless. I know God is going to heal me, but I feel so far from ever being normal again.
I just want my mommy and daddy right now :'(
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