Decisions...

So, they asked if I wanted to stay in IDP while waiting for an opening for the house or leave and take a break from IDP while waiting for an opening for the house.....

uhhh.....

ummmm......

I can't decide. Part of me wants to, and part of me doesn't. I know I'd use that time to fully engage in symptoms and idk how that would work out too well :/ ..... So, IDK. I'll prob. stay, just to keep some structure and help me ALONG recovery.

Oy. This is just.... my mind is in all different spots. But I KNOW I want recovery. I do I do I do!!!!!