Update! :)

So Timberline didn't work out :( It's ok though. I figure God knows what he's doing and I think the fact that I'll be going back to AWH is prob. what's best. It's hard to do... but I think I can do it.

Not sure when I'll admit, but it should't be too long. OY. I feel more at ease though because now I have things in place and things are being done and that makes me feel better.

I work today and tomorrow and then I'm off the schedule for a bit until I'm a little more healthy to be at work. I think it's good to finally just be focusing on my health again and really kicking ED's butt. I know I can do it and I have a lot of good ideas for this time being there at AWH and what I can really do to succeed. I'm actually kind of excited because I feel like this is it! I can do this! Maybe things are going to finally start going like SUPER GREAT. Like I'll really get a grip on ED and symptom use.

Also, I wanted to say that I deleted a previous post about AWH. I never meant to sound like it was a judgmental place. AWH is a wonderful place with loving, caring staff. When I wrote that post I was very upset with things and I was aggravated. Yes, I do struggle with feeling judged and I do struggle with going back to AWH because I feel like staff will judge me, but I KNOW they won't. I know they never will or have. So I apologize.

Anyway! I will keep everyone updated on when I go :) Part of me wants to just back out but I'm not going to! I won't. I deserve to live a happy life and a healthy one. And I am going to this time my all.

Thank you to everyone for the encouraging words these past weeks! You all rock (=